‘You can feel so lonely – but other times so guilty’ admits Ashley Cain as he opens up on baby Azaylia’s tragic death
ASHLEY Cain has revealed a heart-breaking admission of "loneliness" and "guilt" following the passing of his little girl.
The MTV alumni and former footballer, 33, is doting dad to tot Azaylia, who died from a rare form of leukaemia aged eight months in 2021.
Earlier this month, Ashley broke down in tears as he opened up about the tot's health battle on ITV reality show, The Real Full Monty Christmas Special.
Now he has revealed the lasting feelings of grief on Good Morning Britain's Thursday episode.
It came as he supported the show's 1 Million Minutes campaign and ITV anchor Ben Shephard's role in supporting Sands United, a London-based football team for dads who have sadly lost a child.
Ex sports star Ashley donated his time to play for the rival team and gushed over the group.
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He said: "It's so wonderful.
"I have done this the past two years and it's been an incredible day for me."
He then told how it was a platform for "voicing grief" and admitted: "You can feel so lonely.
"Other times, you can feel so guilty.
"It is that opportunity to share your grief with other people and, for one day, learn how to smile again."
Earlier in the segment, Ashley told how the sporting group was "taking us back to before the most traumatic time of our life as parents."
Ashley previously left GMB host Susanna Reid close to tears as he detailed his latest physical challenge in aid of his late little girl.
And earlier this month, viewers saw the reality TV star - who has since embarked on a number of charity missions in Azaylia's name - with tears in his eyes as he spoke directly to camera on The Real Full Monty.
On the show, he said: "One morning, me and Safiyya [his then-partner and Azaylia's mum] just had a sense that it would be that morning.
"We wrapped our arms around Azaylia, and we counted her last breaths."
He confessed he was "angry" and had "demons" about her premature passing and admitted he didn’t see “any point and reason” for him to exist.
Ashley added: "I just thought for once in my life because of her, I want to be the best person I can be.
"I want to achieve some amazing things cause I want her to know that it was because of her."
At the time of Azaylia's death, Ashley wrote on his Instagram page: "Rest in paradise princess. I will always hold you in my heart until I can hold you again in heaven."
Ashley shared his tot with ex Safiyya Vorajee - with the little girl diagnosed with leukaemia just two months after her birth.
Earlier this month, Ashley told of the "guilt" he feels after revealing he is set to become a dad for the second time.
Ashley will welcome a boy in January with his close friend - two years after his daughter's death.
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Yet Safiyya exclusively told The Sun that he stood at Azaylia's grave and asked to have another baby.
In response, the Ex On The Beach alumni said "recollections may vary."
