TULISA Contoslavlos has described the shocking moment she was sexually assaulted, after having her drink spiked.
The incident happened in her younger days when she was out with a group of friends, one of whom tricked her against her will.
The I’m a Celebrity star made her confession on the Paul C Brunson Safe Space podcast, where she described in searing honesty, the horrific chain of events.
She said: “I was out with a group of boys from my area who I'd known for years, was friends with, and I remember seeing one of them, they had something in their drink, and it was fizzing, and I instantly thought, oh God.”
The former N-Dubz singer said that she became fearful due to her her “super sensitive” reaction to drugs.
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She continued: “They’re taking drugs. What are you putting in there? And I looked to him, and I was like, please, please, please don't put anything in my drink."
"I was like, I'm super sensitive, because at the time I'd started having like, fits off the back of just weed. So I was like, I can't take any drug. Like, please, please don't put any drugs in my drink. Like, and he was like, no, no.”
The 36-year-old then recalled a blurred blackout, when the attack must have taken place.
She said: “I remembered feeling like, what is going on? And then next thing, you know, I just remember flashes of being in a car and just seeing the lights, the street lights."
"So I must have been lying back, and I just remember open my eyes for a second, seeing street lights, street lights, street lights, and then, obviously, waking up in a room, and then, yeah, the rest is history.”
With a voice full of emotion, Tulisa described how the anger has left her feeling full of vengeance.
She says: I think I probably would have attacked him, so I wouldn't have been able to report it is the truth. Probably would have punished the crap out of him and not wanting to report it, because I would have got in trouble.”
But the star defiantly takes no responsibility for the attack.
“That's what I would have done. To this day, I'm not someone when I feel hurt or backed in a corner, goes to self-blame. I blamed him through and through. Didn't look at one bit of my action and think what could I have done differently? That is all him.”
Elsewhere in the interview, Tulisa opened up about her past romance with N-Dubz bandmate Fazer, as she called him her “safe space” whom she still loves “to this day.”
Fazer whos real name is Richard Rawson, starred in the hip hop band alongside Tulisa and her cousin Dappy.
The trio found fame in the late 2000s with hit songs including, Playing with Fire, Number 1 and I Need You.
During those heady years in the band, Tulisa and Fazer were in a relationship which she now reveals, helped her to cope with the pressures of fame.
She said: “My safe space was Fazer, like my safety blanket.
“He was the person that loved me, he was the only person that deserved it, because that is real. That's real to this day.
"We love each other like family. It doesn't matter if it's not romantic anymore.
"That's my family, that's my soul family and the person that I’ve become doesn't want anyone in my life other than my soul family, especially not when it comes to intimacy.
“He's the only person, looking back, that means something now."
When asked why the relationship fizzled out, Tulisa replied that their 2012 split was “inevitable” after they found themselves to be “incompatible.”
After her time as a pop star, Tulisa went onto to appear as a judge on the X Factor and played a key role in putting together the chart topping band, Little Mix in 2011.
But after the 2012 release of her album, The Female Boss, Tulisa retreated from the limelight as she revealed she struggled with the constant media intrusion.
This year she made a triumphant return to the spotlight starring in I’m a Celebrity get me out of year where she made headlines after revealing herself to be “demi sexual” -unable to form a sexual connection with a person, without the presence of a strong emotional bond.
But although fans were delighted by her return, the singer became the third star to be eliminated from the process.
Soon after her shock exit, Tulisa decided to head home to the UK, instead of remaining in Australia for the final, as is expected.
Then in a strange twist, she deleted all evidence of her involvement on the show, from her Instagram.
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The star later admitted to be overwhelmed by the experience, which left her having panic attacks in her hotel room.
What is drink spiking?
Drink spiking is a deliberate act. Public perception is that it is limited to slipping drugs into an alcoholic drink, however, drink spiking can include:
- Putting alcohol into a non-alcoholic drink (such as water, soft drink, non-alcoholic punch or fruit juice).
- Adding extra alcohol to an alcoholic drink.
- Adding prescription or illegal drugs (such as benzodiazepines, amphetamines or GHB – also called liquid ecstasy) into an alcoholic or non-alcoholic drink.
Drinks are most commonly spiked with alcohol.
Alcohol and other drugs typically used in drink spiking incidents often have sedative effects. This means you might feel like passing out, have trouble controlling your body, experience blackout or memory loss, and can result in becoming unconscious.
